Frustration

I wanted very much to share a revelation today.
Not that anger got the better of me, i'm not angry.. just very very well.. whats the word. Hmmn, affected? things just seems going crashing way down.

Its like a one man army u know?
I know Jesus is with me. Thats sufficient. But sometimes people just needs someone to talk to u know? Pastor said last year everyone needs a lightning rod.

A family tradition that has been passed in my personal family of 4.
- Never ever getting what we worked so hard for.

I hate being emo or being brought down by this.
But how would u feel if u had went fr a marathon run, got caught in one of the most heaviest rain's u could ever get caught in. (Note to self, u are still in your tanktop and jogging pants) and then u had to rush down all the way to a shopping centre by 12pm. But if u dont reach on time u wont be paid. i reached at 12.30 and praise God they still took me in and decided to pay me.

Throughout that day, i helped the company give out flyers, running around like a joke just so that people will laugh and just collect that flyer. At the end of the day, the word i most hated was the 2 words, "thank you" cause i said it so many times. Know how it feels that u had been on an empty stomach the whole day with nothing but God's word to rely on? Yes it was hard but it was more than enough. Jesus and i both up-ed their sales by almost 250%. their business was flourshing the moment i stepped in to help advertise shoes, we sold 20 shoes in 1 hour.

Tell me how isit possible fr a man who has no working experience whatsoever do such an incredible feat?
Answer: The power of God did it, not the man

i worked a total of 10 hours that day.
Total pay- $36

When do i get paid?
Ans: In 2-3 mths time.

How much will i get paid?
Ans: less than $30.

Tell me how am i suppose to feel? Building fund ends in 4 weeks time and this happens? Its so hard just to keep a smile going. i'm still able to fufil my building fund though.

Everything seems to go downhill.. But i know my God is always uphill